I bitched and whined and cried a lot about Christmas, didn't I? It's okay. You can say it. The truth. I did. I know it.
I'm not sorry. But at least I admit that I was a big baby this year.
That is not to say that my holiday was a good one. Far from it. It was stressful, hard, tearful and I barely survived through it. But I did and now that it is over, I can focus on the silver linings that brought a smile to my heart (even if not to my face) and appreciate the holiday for what it was...different.
As I was scanning through my photos this morning (admittedly many, many less than were taken in previous years) I came across a few that gave me a moment of joy at the memories that came slamming back into my brain. Memories and moments that I couldn't recall just a few short days ago as I was chest deep in sorrow and doing a wonderful job of wallowing in the pit.
((I should take a pause to apologize for what I am sure has been absolutely rotten behavior on my part to all who know me, talk to me or read my blog. I am back, I am better...I am now PMSing, so please be careful.))
So here they are folks. The top memories of Christmas 2008 (in no particular order) which is just another way of saying "The only things that made me think of smiling "...
Picture of my kids with their Great Grandpa. We weren't having a cheese button dinner at his trailer house surrounded by the Christmas Village and dozens of family members. We were instead in a cold and stark room in a nursing home surrounded by staff ready to take him to the dining room but all the same, he helped bring Christmas cheer for a few moments. And if nothing else, I will always have this picture to share with my kids.
Oh look! The Nutcrackers have been so naughty that the kids put them in the corners to serve their Time-Out punishments. When I came back through the kitchen I saw that the one on the left must have needed to pee so my son used a nearby Easter bucket so that he wouldn't piss on the carpet!
Oh, yes...who could forget this? Lady K was in need of some holiday spirit so my mom and I planned a Christmas Goodie baking day. As we finished each tray of goodies, we placed them on my bed (having no where else to put them). This is Lady K taking a picture of our finished progress. I was so busy yelling at her ("Don't you dare fall on all of that hard work!!! Get down at once!") that I didn't get a picture of the actually goodies. I spent the rest of the evening singing "I smell sex and candy, yeah..." in my head!
Dear Hubby helping Teensy put the angel on the tree. It was just too sweet to not smile for a moment.
That for the first time ever, my Step-Dad may have actually loved a gift he got from us...a book of history about trains and the area in which we live.
My kids did a wonderful job helping with the blue bag pick up for the food drive. They enjoyed giving to others in need as much as dear Hubby and I had hoped they would.
My puppies absolutely got into the Christmas Spirit and enjoyed the toys they got from us. It was hard to keep them from fighting over them though after Lasey chewed the squeaky out of hers right away.
Bubba's XBOX came in to a nearby town at 10 pm on Christmas Eve and my mom drove the 30 mile to pick it for us. THANKS MOMMY! WE OWE YOU BIG TIME AND WILL NEVER FORGET IT!
Teensy's doll house was so tall she stood on the coffee table to open it. Apparantly this is the best photo I got of her and it.
Hubby adored his gift...he HAS been asking for it for several years and I finally was able to find exactly what he wanted.
I loved my gifts, too. Best of all was the "Twilight" book and the mega expensive perfume that I have been out of for several months. Thanks for listening, honey!
So that's that. The best memories of Christmas 2008. I guess I was able to smile a bit and enjoy myself at times. However, you may not have noticed (although I surely did) that there are no pictures from Christmas with Hubby's family. That's because for me it sucked.